Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Chapters - Unfolding

My head hurts, and it's not even the head that I smashed on the bed post this morning, while trying to beat my self up to my feet today morning. They always did say that love hurts.

Behind my pretty stupid looking smile, there's a thick film coating my teeth; and I can't help but run my tongue over it to see if I still have my taste buds in place. I’m not sure if it does or not, ‘cause my taste buds become extinct after a sour feeling of my self ran across me like something I have never felt in my life. Slurred words and tired eyed expressions are all that is left of me.

And I'm sure that you think it’s not your fault. It's never your fault. Nothings ever your fault. It's just me !! Stupid me going on dreaming of a better day all the while knowing I am running behind a mirage.

But when I could feel my heart beating inside my stomach, and my tongue became hot and bitter as my temples were pulsating; I clenched my teeth and thought of you.

But that's ok.. 4 days ago...in the afternoon...... I had to crawl across my living room floor because my heart broke into 317 minuscule pieces. I picked up as many pieces as possible and glued them back together with my hot glue gun, but not every piece was found; so I guess my heart will never be complete again.


  1. Hay.... This is so much I don't know the words kind of stuff man.


    Once, I remembered the film "As you Like it" of Shakespeare. I'm not a reader of his stuff but I really felt the movie as it passes.

    You Bastard! ;)

  2. All the world's a stage,
    And all the men and women merely players

    ....how UN-TRUE....that is !

    I never do agree with some of these so called "elite" works of art !

    Referring to men and woman as "Merely Players" means we all act or behave according to a set script.

    Which means we do not possess a soul /mind and free will.

    People just "hail" those work(s) just because they are from "great people" ..

    FUCK IT !!.. look more closely, even "great people" are just humans and they also have errors and blunders like the rest of us.

    I have a soul and a free will. I neither do not act according to a script nor believe in a god who makes one for all of us.

    So.. no Shakespeare for me either.. for far better reasons other than me also getting baffled at times on his use of language.

  3. I have seen that you always believe things in a binary manner. O or 1.
    Cool.. since you make sure that you have switched correctly.

    Yes I agree with what we have in our own. It's what we do and what we sometimes pretend to be. It's all inside us in nutshell.

    I guess Shakespeare has seen it over from your head nash!

    After all has happened, Still it's a work of an art well fitted in to a script. And I know that Shakespeare knew that he was also just an actor which did the script writers part well.